fifty-eighth post. THE LAST.
and herby i declare that i had moved to somewhere else.
to seek better opportunities to change myself into a better person.
and also i will NOT scold nor criticise people anymore here and also in my new blog.

HO SHIYUN. if you are reading.
thanks for your comments anyway.
i know i suck. i know i'm hateful.
LET'S END IT HERE. and i can go happily-ever-after.

see the evidence in my archives. a click will do.
if you admire yenling, well i have no comments,
cos i also admire her for tolerating me for SO LONG.
she's quit school in case you dont know.

and i think, I THINK.
maybe we really aren't made for friends.
AFFINITY, what a chim word. that is in control of God.
we lack that. and SERIOUSLY we need alot of that in order to get together.

also the "prefect triangle" does not refer to a LOVE relationship,
in case you dont know i wrote that PLAYFULLY.
to refer us a three joint together, like a triangle.

its in the past, what can i do?
memories cannot be erased, but forgotten temporarily.
so therefore here i will say,
"BYE SHIYUN. BEST WISHES IN EVERYTHING. whatever you do."
and i dont hate you anymore.

but we still cant be friends, so what's the point?
and did you know that i really cried when i read those posts?
did you really think that i hated you all along?
why must you think that way?
fine. whosoever that is blabbering nonsense beside you.

i never touched that notebook since my argument with brande,
what's the point of using a book with holes,
and which brings back unhappy memories?

do you know that i had actually treasured the relationship very carefully?
reason beinbg please refer to SECONDARY ONE serenachia,
ask people around you what they think about the old serena, the real silent emo freak who cries almost for trivial matters;
the one who cried because she broke wenyi's pipa.
the one who cried when zhoulaoshi came and scolded her.
way before transforming into a person attracting attention in order to get more friends.
i am like very happy already.
why must i need a oneandonly friend? but brande's realy the one who understands me.
why cant everybody just stay together?
if you say yenling, arent you and brande who told me that she hates me for my attire?
i never said that i hated her or that she will affect me, and since she hates me then i wun talk much to her.
understand? ...