ohpleasebequick.
well, at least the project bonded us together again,
somehow temporarily.
ok, SORRY BRANDE.
sorry that i am angry with you.
reason being, because maybe i am jealous.
maybe i am really an emo person who cannot stand people better than me.
maybe because i am really fed up (with my own life)and you know, it just burst like a balloon.
hope that the apology above helps. (:
but i am stillnot sure, whether to be friends with you again.
the first reason that i come up with (to not be friends with you),
its because not to repeat this all over again.
if we were back to normal,
if later on i still quarrel with you and henceforth another breakup,
everybody will be more tired.
i dont want you to withstand my stupid temper, you understand?
the second reason that i came up with,
its because maybe everybody will live on more happily.
you will not have to think about whether my mother likes you or not.
because when that time comes, we're not friends anymore.
maybe a close classmate, but not friends, get what i mean?
the third reason,
its because, you can choose yenling "safely".
because maybe she really dislikes me for my behaviour and attire. whatever.
i'm not like what you say, "you don't want to wait",
now i show you these reasons, you can understand.
if you still dont understand, never mind.
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TO SHIYUN (ho),
i've read your post just now.
just be with brande. you don't have to "force" yourself to talk to me during CO.
but if i approach you, can i request you not to ignore me? (please)
and, yes i have relaxed now. and saw that IT WAS MY MISTAKE.
i just have to praise the LORD for whatever results that i havegot,
and work for the best.
and yes i admit that i have really got angry with you for your results.
in my opinion, everybody just do their best jiu can lerr.
just don't pin your hopes to high, dont compare with smartasses.
just be yourself. even if you haven't reached your target. if its close enough, just be contented.
dont be too of a perfectionist.
then, yes i am silent.
you know why?
because it is better to shut up than saying things which are not supposed to be spoken,
because it is better to shut up than talking in a tone which annoys people.
because it is better to shut up than really talking and not listening to what people have got to say.
i rather listen to you guys talk than really being self-centered in my conversation.
but now everything seems so impossible to happen again.
or maybe i will beg you guys to be friends with me again.
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maybe these days' rain are showers of congratulations,
because i really seen through every mistake i made in friendship.
or maybe showers of sorrow,
because i really had lost some precious things in life.
MY BROADCAST! IT'S FINISHING!
but my literature journal... raaaars.
wish me good luck in my oral later! :DDDD
God bless all of the lower sec, and meee! (((:
and maybe i will delete this blog, since it ended up a tradgedy.
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